tears like rain

It has been hard to get to sleep.
 Every time I closed my eyes, I see his smile, his face, and his eye
 I hear his singing voice and piano playing.
Then the heart starts to sear with pain, and the tears fall like rain.
People always said there is Heaven on Earth, but they forget to mention there is hell as well.
I hope my heart mends before my journey ends.
Everyone has moved on, I tried to go on.
It is not for lack of trying, it just seemed like life is so trying.
It may be almost two years for all, to me, it feel like they just came to my door.
We are to suppose to find joy in life, some day I cannot find or see the joy in mine.
I know that God does not give me experiences without the strength, even the experiences that I do not seek
His burden is supposed to be light, where is the strength to make mine light?
My heart fell heavy like cement, I don't feel like picking it up again
I shall try to make it through  today, so I can fight weariness another day.